Letter from the Heart

Dear Robi,

I just want you to know that you are on the right track. This past year especially, you have grown by leaps and bounds. I am so proud of your bravery... every time something big came up like loved ones dying, past traumas being triggered, parenting skills being put to the test, almost facing serious trouble at the #1 public university in the world that you worked day and night to get into, falling into true love & having it rock your world to loosing that love, traveling to a third world country by yourself, learning to surf-rock climb- snow board, rededicating to your yoga teacher training, rededicating to your meditation practice, watching the man you love welcome other women into his heart and mind, you let God bring on the pain and you embraced it, you experienced self-harm behaviors that hadn't shown their ugly face in years, YOU not only got through it... you stood strong, you held on tight to your faith in love, your faith in a power greater at work, your faith in your true ability, YOU held onto your deep desire to heal & you have not given up. You did the emotional & spiritual work & still do every single day. I know how bad you want this. I know how bad you want to be healed. I've watched you willingly take on the challenges & some kicking and screaming, but look what you've learned. You are on the fast track girl. There's no turning back. The ones who can keep up with you and walk with you will. The ones who can't, don't be sad. They will be taken care of... they have their own path. Keep going, Im so proud of you. The veil has been lifted... open your eyes. Look around you... everything that you once believed is no more. It was all an illusion. You are free. Let yourself bask in the freedom. You were never broken. You and everyone you touch are shinning bright. Take a bow.

Love,
Your Light

Gut Checks. Listen to Them.

On the topic of intution, I had a resent disturbing situation with another female whom I had serious gut checks with. My heart wanted to love this girl (new friend) who got too close with my boyfriend while we were taking time apart for a month or so
, but I sensed the imbalance in her & in the friendship. I sensed spiritual danger and unconsciousness in this girl while my sweetheart was unable to call her on her shit because of his own imbalances of being the "nice guy." I was almost willing to sacrifice my comfortability and not listen to my intuition for the sake of other people liking me. SCREW that. The lessons I learned here were to stand strong in who I am, stand strong in my essence by not letting the imbalances and blindness of others shake me. I was sickened by the scenario because I felt tricked and betrayed by this woman and not respected. After my honey stood up for me and explained to her that I felt threatened and uneasy about them spending alone time, she still texted him to hang out and go climbing and expressed being upset. What are the driving forces behind a woman or friend who tests the boundaries of  love and intimacy between two kind spirits especially where she has already overstepped? Both my partner and I have other great friendships with the opposite sex, all of which are non-threatening and feel in alignment with what we are about. What if the roles were reversed? If your a man & your good female friend was madly in love and wanted to respect her new love's concerns by setting some extra boundaries and space for a while, would you respect her & be happy for her? Or would you continue to call and text her to go on solo adventures? Would you express how upset you were about it and seek sympathy from her? Uhhh, I know I sure as heck wouldn't. And this is where I have to practice empathy, love, & understanding!! holy monkey. We are all human, in this condition together. God knows I have my imbalances with my self-esteem being shaken at times and certain things trigger me etc etc on & On. I can have compassion for this woman because I believe she knows not how she is... I can only wish an awakening for her. BUT, at the same time its vitally important to honor your bodies intuition, that sick feeling that turns in your stomach and tells you something is not right with this. It is possible to forgive and love people, yet not let them into the boundaries of your intimate life. Luckily, the man I chose and whom chose me are waking up spiritually on this path at our own pace. We are both open to honoring eachother and learning what that means as we grow together. We can hold space for eachother to work through our imbalances while knowing we have eachothers backs no matter what. The love and adventures and intimacy we share are outta this world and we deeply desire to motivate and inspire as many people as we can to live big like we are. So for that, I am thankful for these lessons on intution, self-love, and forgiveness.

Love yourself enough to set those boundaries and know you are supported by the Universe.